and today I just feel blah
So it is update time.
First, in order to appease Sarah, I must talk about my interview with the Admissions Office. I think that the interview went very well. They attempted to keep it as informal as possible, which is difficult in an interview setting, I mean there were three people standing there quizzing me for a half an hour for a job I wanted, I can only let my hair down so much in this environment. However they really seemed to like me, I obviously had a lot of energy which they were very pleased to see, and I think I spoke well and presented myself as a nice, intelligent young man.
So I got the job. I just found that out yesterday when they called me. Now it is slightly ambiguous at the moment about when I'm hired til. I was brought on definitely for summer employment (working mon, wed, fri 9-5) but Mike, the head guy, said he hadn't talked to his co-head yet about hiring for next semester. So, at least I have the summer thing secured. What's more, it's only a part time job, which will allow me plenty of time ot get another job, slash take the dance and voice classes I want to on top of my summer school.
So that's all fun and dandy and underway. Now onto On the Town. So we entered tech this weekend, which was a bitch and a half to say the least. I had a very rough weekend emotionally, which was not helped by having to be at a rehearsal for 13 hours each day.
The thing with this show is that I'm just not really enjoying the people who I'm around a lot. And this was something that I ahd definitely forseen being an issue. And this is not just me bitching here, the three other underclassmen in the show and I have talked about just how isolated we feel in this cast. Everyone else is so close, they have all their classes together, they live together, they've known eachother for years, so I can't really be that surprised that I feel like I'm not really friends with anyone in the cast. I feel like an afterthought. I'm not invited to the cast gatherings typically, because I'm not really friends with anyone going. I just hear about it, and in the event that I go, I feel like the 5th wheel, because I'm just kinda there, looming in the corner.
Then there's the whole support system. Now this will sound kind of petty, but get over it. See we put ourselves on the line when we go on stage to perform, it's really scary, and hard to do. So everyone is really encouraging of one another, letting people know they did a great job when they get off stage, telling them how great they look in their costumes, how well they danced that night. Yeah I don't get any of that. It happens directly in front of me though.
So the other day, we finished the caveman dance and I was standing there and one of the older girls came up to the person standing next to me and told him how funny he was in the caveman dance, and how she just watched him the entire time. And that's great for him to hear, and he is by all accounts a hoot, but that does not really do much good for my self esteem, to hear everyone else in the cast get praise besides myself.
I frankly do not enjoy being at rehearsal anymore, besides the times I'm on stage, then I'm having a lot of fun. the thing is I have learned so much this year, about acting, motivation, what have you, and so being in a show like this, I am trying my hardest to make sure that I am doing everything that I have been taught. Now granted, I'm second chorus member from the left, bringing on a piano, or walking across the stage, so it's not earth shattering performances I am cashing in here, but I am really trying to seriously do as much as I can with what I have been given.
Because of the heavy amount of rehearsals we have been having recently I have not been spending nearly enough time with my friends. I'm just around a whole bunch of people who don't notice me all day, and then go to bed and wake up to it again the next day. I finally snapped on that and have been around my friends here as much as I can afford recently. That has been doing wonders for me, just some really good conversations, and it's really ncie to feel like someone is actually listening to me.
I'm going to be really sad when the show is over, I'm sure of it, because come the performance, everything is just going to turn to gold. Being in front of the audience, their support and everything really makes it all seem so much better. But still, I am not happy with what this process has been so far. I'm really excited that next year, in the event that I get into a show again, I will actually be working with my friends and peers.
My mom and dad get in tomorrow night and then my grandparents the following night. I am SUPER excited for that. I'm going to be outrageously busy this weekend, what with the show, and the rehearsals I'm having for my musical theatre classes finale performance, and a choir concert and all the things that are going on, but I am WAY happy to be busy. Though that does make the down time I'll have the following week seem very unattractive.
Well I am off to class now. We have our finale dress tonight, where there are some invited guests coming to watch, so kind of like a dry run of the real thing. Kind of exciting right? Hope everyone is well, and that the blanket of negative energy that has blown over my life it seems for the last month is not reaching out to any of you.
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