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So, I am at work right now, clearly not working like I should be.  Actually there really isn't all that much for me to be doing anyways, so frankly, keeping myself awake by staying busy is a good thing.

Summer is almost over, thank god.  I don't know if I am ever going to learn to enjoy the summer.  Next year I need to plan a little better.  I have not been unhappy, by really any stretch of the imagination.  Clearly there have been low points, but I can't say that I have been sad or upset like I was last summer.

However, I have not really been happy.  Again, maybe this is just an exaggeration, because I know that I've had really high points.  But, especially recently I have felt like I'm really indifferent about pretty much everything, and I'm not ever really engaged in what I'm doing.  It's like a contest with myself to see how I can keep busy.  This summer also once again reinforced in me the fact that I have to go into performing, because lordy I miss it and am not happy blending into the surrounding world like I do when I'm not working on my craft.

But, I am really excited for the school year to start, and the next few weeks as well.  First of all, my mommy is coming out to help me move into my new apartment.  I'm really glad she is, because if for no other reason, I am really missing home right now, and I would love to be there.  Mom coming in feels like a great touch of home that I really need.

I tend to get really stressed out and overworked emotionally when I'm here at school, and it happens more when I'm at school for an extended period.  I haven't had a real chance to go home and unwind in sometime now.  I've been turning over in my mind a fewe thoughts on this recently.  One of the reasons I knwo I like to go home is because there is so much less responsibility, and it's where I have people who take care of me.  Yet while I'm here, I'm forced to grow up a little more, take care of myself, and assume the responsibility that I really don't like.

Yet the thing is, I think it's good for me to be forced to stay here, because I do need to grow up and mature.  So while I miss being able to be a little more carefree, I hope that growing and maturing in this way will make me a stronger person and a more mature human being who will be more self sufficient and capable when he enters the real world.  Again, one of the reasons summer is always hard for me is because there are so few people around me that I know, so it really doesn't allow me to rely on many if any people.

Anywho, moving on to the more positive.  High School Musical 2 came out!  Lord knows I was there last friday watching the primere, and was not disappointed.  They definitely had their heads in the game.  the one thing I have to say though, there was one scene, the scene where Gabriella leaves Troy, where I couldn't believe what I was seeing.  Good acting!!!

I know, I know!  But as she was singing, she was really doing everything she should have been and I was impressed.  Thank god they interrupted the acting with random ass shots of her walking through a locker room, staring into space singing to no one.  That is the caliber I expect when I watch these movies, none of this actually being of quality stuff.

So this movie was everything I could hope for, Bad acting, horrible dancing, singing over processed to the point it didn't even sound human, and even southwestern scenery! (a little touch of home there)  I loved it, and I hope to god they offer Zac efron more money so he'll make the third one they have planned called, get this: Haunted High School!  Couldn't be better than that!

I'm at work, otherwise I would now go into the many pictures I have to share.  Over the last few weeks I have had many opportunities to take pictures (like my 21st birthday, and a day trip david and I went on to Jamaica Plain)  But alas, that will just have to wait for later. 

As for now, I seriously need a nap. 

I'm 21!  That's all for now.

I don't have enough time to write an actual blog entry (I have two more days of classes, and quite a bit of work to be getting along with) but I have a few announcements.

Hey everybody, it has certainly been awhile.

I'm currently waiting for two of my friends from school to get into the city, so I'm just spending some time sitting in the library until they get here, so I decided this would be a good way to occupy my time.  I have to inform you all, I'm hard core going to start in on Harry Potter here, so spoilers will abound in this entry.  So for those sorry few of you who have not yet finished Harry Potter, I heartily suggest you find some other blog to read.

Bottom line, I can not think of a better way for this series to end.  At first, I was so sad that it was over, and frankly for a day or two I got really moody and had to consciously occupy myself to avoid dwelling on the fact that something that meant so much to me had finally reached an end.  I couldn't believe that this series I had grown up with was finally over, because for over ten years I had been wondering, what was going to happen, how was it going to end.  And then after all those years of wondering, speculation, what have you, the answers were held in the form of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

Now I don't think that I can say that it is my favorite book in the series simply because it doesn't seem like one of the books in the series.  It seems more like it is the entire series wrapped into one.  I'm not sure if that is going to make sense to anyone but myself, but in each of the books it was like there was a specific plot line independent of itself (the first trying to guard the sorcerors stone, the second discovering the mystery of the chamber of secrets, etc.) yet this book, the major plot line was the running plot line from the entire series.  SO to say that this book was my favorite feels like saying the Harry Potter series was my favorite book.

Number of times Garrett cried while reading, 3.  The first time was when Dobby died, I actually got so incredibly emotional over this, and I think a lot of that had to do with the fact that Dobby hardly even spoke in the entire book.  He was just briefly there, and he was only there to help Harry, and it cost him his life.  Dobby's complete self sacrifice was one of the most touching story lines in the entire book, and I am actually get really emotional just think about "Dobby, a free house elf"

Second time, when Fred died.  We all knew one of the Weasley twins was going to die, we all knew the Weasleys couldn't make it out of this saga unscathed, but that did not stop me from wishing it wouldn't happen.  More what hit me was the fact that George had essentially lost half of his dientity with the loss of his twin.  One of the best twin character moments was when George lost his ear, and when asked how he felt he said "holey."  Their ability to find the humor in EVERYTHING was amazing.  I think Alex, maybe Katherine put it wonderfully when they said they liked the idea of George putting up a portrait of Fred in the joke shop that watched over for shop lifters, yelling funny quips at anyone who tried to knick something.  Now that I think of it I'm pretty sure it was julia who said it.

And the last time I cried (along with everyone else I think) was when Harry walked into the forest to face his death.  It was SO beautifully written, when he was surrounded by all of these people who had died for him, died facing that which Harry faced, just looking at all of the things Harry had lost, and even in the face of that how he was willing to sacrifice everything in order to spare those he loved from the loss he had felt.  And him asking "does it hurt" was so simple, so beautiful, so honest.  But it was more when he asked if they would all stay with him that I broke down and howled.  It was probably the best written passage in the entire series.

But the best part of this book: Molly Weasley kicking some serious Bellatrix ASS!  Molly was my second favorite character in the series, until this book made her my favorite.  I was terrified shewas going to die, cuz I know sh would sacrifice herself for these kids.  But when she screamed "Don't touch my daughter, you bitch!" and then went to fight her, I was like, WOOOOO damn!  I have never loved you more!

To JK's unending credit, I have to say that no author has never made me feel as invested in their characters as she has.  Now granted I have never journeyed near 5000 pages with any character before, but everyone of these characters was so alive, and so real to me, that I was emotionally invested in each and everyone of their outcomes.

I'm planning on re-reading thisbook pretty soon here after summer school is done, and before next semester starts, because now I feel I'll be able to take my time and fully enjoy it.  I was so obsessed with finding out what happened and not letting it be spoiled for me by the internet that I did rush a little bit and there were a few points where I skipped some stuff.

My friends are almost here, so I'm going to cut this a little short, but I'll end just by saying that I always knew that Snape was good, and I was so glad to see him get the redemption that he deserved.  He really is such a tragic hero (I don't care what Jo says, he's a hero in my eyes) and just the fact that his dying request was to see the eyes he loved so much, was great work on JK's behalf.

So of course I went to the midnight release of Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix last night.  Under usual circumstances I would be nervous about spoiling anything for anyone who might read this.  But, seeing as most people who really care already know what happens, I'm going to give my two cents on it now.

So as some of you might have heard, I made a trip home about two weeks ago for a little family event.  Chances are you  heard about it, chances are you were there!  I took lots of pictures and am now finally going to do a post about them!

This entry is going to be unsatisfying, but I just needed to update, since it's been over a month since my last, which is disgusting.  But let me just tell you all, that I have an amazing post coming, with a LOT of pictures!  Like seriously, a Lot!

Hey cool peeps out there.  It appears that I am going to fall even further behind in my attempt to get all my pictures up on this, but don't worry, that's just because I have MORE pictures to share.

It has been a long time since I last updated, so excuse me while I solve this problem...

So it's the end of the year, which means that it is time for Garrett to get a little nostalgic on yall.